The Diary of a Wannabe Fashion Designer

So my friend Bloodmyer looks like she's starting to make it in the alt model world :)

I'm super duper happy for her, she deserves it.

People keep asking her for autographs!

I'm thinking of starting a fan group for her on here :)

So it's been decided, my other project is on emotions.
This is quite ammusing because based on how I dress, when I tell people they assume it's all gonna be doom and gloom!
Lol, I'm doing a page on each emotion, but I'm trying to concentrate on the nice ones, just to prove I can be a shiney happy person withought having to dress like a 1960's golf caddy.

Please do excuse me for any hyperness hence forth, I've been eating dairy free cheesecake that actually tastes like cheesecake and contains waaaaay to muc sugar so I feel about 10 years old again :S

So Summer, Summer, Summer, what did I do with my Summer?

Well I fell in love which was the nicest bit :) (but anybody who reads my journalallready knows that because my "OMG I'M IN LOVE" post has been right at the top since I randomly disspeared over the summer (incase you didn't guess I'm not dead, he hasn't turned out to be a crazy...YAY!).

Got to see friends and family that I hadn't seen in months :D

Made new friends (and a few new enimies...But they shall be sporked!)

Was kidnapped and adopted by two lovely people from Charnel House (http://thecharnelhouse.com/ please don't click gallery, way to many terorfyig photos of me looking like I'm about to vomit into my pint :S)

Partied at least once a fortnight, temporarily making me feel like an actual young person rather than someone who never goes out.

Saw more live bands in one summer than I'd seen in my whole life beforehand :) (Uberbyte for the win!)

Went to Camden Barfly (where, when I was ordering a double rum and cokle, the rum bottle fell off the wall causing me to end up with ever so slightly more than planned) , with Kev to see Lacuna Coil (who were brill, but their support act were awful and the crowd seriously needed some caffine or something, they were SO STILL!)

Went to Subculture in Leeds (which is the most fabulous underground club :D As in it's actually UNDER THE GROUND), with Kev t see Uberbyte (who were even more awsome than they were the first time I saw them that Summer), supported by Pro-ject (also awsome, and their guitarm player is very pretty...What? I can look can't I? So long as I don't touch...), V2A (whose lighting BLINDED me) and Mandr01d (best piss-take band EVER!)

And generally just had the most awsome Summer ever, I'm actually kind of gutted it's over and I'm stuck back in the villiage that time forgot but nothing lasts forever and there's only two months until the Christmas holis!

Back at Uni, will sort out friend request etc soon, also gonna do a round up of my awsome summer :)

Toodles for now

Alex xxx

I got a bundle of very pretty Evestus personalised business cards in the post this morning, how awsome are these:

Excuse my Wallpaper lol!

Mam was so confussed as to why I had a package from Estonia until I opened it and explained, she was like "Oh it's from the Eastenders Pikachu band?" lol.

I like getting odd things in the post :D

I have a really good immune system so I very rarely get ill but when I do, it feels like the end of the world. Two members of my family have had swine flu and it passed me by, but now I have this dratted cold and was up all night spluttering. I woke up at about 1pmish, lugged myself out of bed and was hunting for some pyjamas when my brother shouted up the stairs that I needed to get up, I shouted it was ok, I was getting up back to him. Came downstairs to find my dad in a delightful mood again making lunch for him and Adam, I asked if he could make me some (I was feeling unbelieveably sleepy again and I'd only walked down two flights of stairs, I'm not that unfit), and he suddenly started rageing and telling me that there was nothing I could eat. I opened the fridge, pulled out some bean spread I made the other day and said I'd wait until he was done and make myself a sandwich. Five minutes of swearing from the kitchen later I was given sandwich and the evil eye (I geneuinely would have made my own sandwich, I only asked because I'm not well), he was in this mood all day. I actually felt like laughing in his face at one point when for no reason whatsoever while I was photoshopping some stuff for mam's cards he randomly yelled at me to turn my laptop off, by which point I'm pretty sure I'd sneezed out my inner bitch and ok I guess I probably over-reacted but I coldly announced that a "please, would have been nice" at which point he went beserk and started yelling about how he only says please when he's asking and he wasn't asking, he was telling. Did he miss the "You don't own me anymore" memo? I still switched it off though because I didn't want him to take it out on mam when she got home from work. Bloodmyer cheered me up though, she drew me, how fab is this:  I want to punch some people through the internet on her behalf though. People have been being bitchy on her DA account again, someone called her fat and it upset her so much she deleted a lot of her modeling images. Gee thanks random internet bitch, I've only just convinced her that she isn't fat and she doesn't need to diet and now she's all self concious again. Rar feel better now that I've ranted. Now to get rid of this damn cold!

Right next person on any of my friend lists to mention Jorden/Katie Price and Peter "The tangerine" Andre is getting punched IN THE GOB!

Firstly, you all claim not to care about these charvy types and yet every other one of you keeps statusing "She's a skank whore!" etc etc etc.

Secondly, you guys have never met either of them so stop passing your opinions off as fact.

Thirdly, now here is my OPINION which I am NOT passing off as fact: Ever since they got together he's been trying to change her. Now when a woman tries to change a man everyone hates her for it, when a man tries to change a woman that makes her a skank whore huh? Ok, well in that case I'm going into stasus, wake me up when we finally stop being so friggin sexist.

Fourthly, all you readers of OK!, Hello and Nosey bitches pressed against your front window magazines know she just lost a baby right? You know how soul destroying that must be? Well neither do I, but I know people that have had misscarriges and let me tell you, people do some seriously weird things when their grieving.

Fifthly, FACT: Peter Andre is only still famous because he married Jorden, if it wasn't for that he'd have faded back into obscurity after "I'm a Z lister, feed me some wichity grubs and revive my career, I have bills to pay" only to be dug out and remembered for "Mysterious Girl" when VH1 had a "One hit wonders" day.

Sixthly, however entertaining it must be for you to call people Skank Whores, please remember they are infact both human beings, and this whole thing must be incredibly upsetting for BOTH OF THEM.

Right, I've had my say, let this be the end of it, or it'll be gob punching ahoy!

Firstly I'd just like to point out that I haven't used the internet since friday! Are you proud? My internet addiction isn't as bad as I thought!

So friday was fun stuffs, kind of odd at first. I'm now phoneless because my dad cut my contract off because nobody has any money anymore (which is fine, but some sort of warning that was more than three days before the end of the month would have been nice), and I was meeting Kev where he works in Gosforth...I haven't been to Gosforth since I was like twelve...So he had to Facebook directions to me the night before...They reminded me of this: http://www.thesistersofmercy.com/error404page.html infact swap "remove cheap sunglasses" for "empty tower" and it's almost perfect!
As it happens the directions were perfect, at least I think they were, the note paper I had them written down on ended up all musy from the relentless rain, honestly worst rain ever! I started out clinging to a pink umbrella but eventually gave up because I was getting soaked anyway :(
So I eventually got there, waited about five minutes until he finished work then we walked to a Weatherspoons through the torrential rain and ate (OMG a Weatherspoons that actually had Vege-burgers in!).

Then came the insane journey of doom! Apprently getting to Whitley Bay from Gosforth is usually pretty simple...Not when the metro tracks are flooded it's not!
We had to get on a metro for two stops, get off, get a bus that looked like it had just travelled forward in time from the mid-sixties and then get another metro for a few stops. When we got off the metro at Whitley Bay I swear half of the North Sea blew into my face!

Boneyard was great, Memento Mori were fab, it was just a little bit empty, but I think that probably has a bit to do with the weather and maybe the state of transport. I dunno though maybe I'm a little odd but I'd rather be in a nice warm pub with fun people than at home watching the rain fall...Does that make me odd? Oh I met my Charnel House intro thread hijacker!

Saterday morning was beyond strange...Apparently I missed a few people when I was telling people I no longer had a working phone and somehow managed to guilt trip Bloodmyer into coming out WITHOUGHT DOING ANYTHING! See she said she was coming to Pride then Charnel afterwards but she texted me at 7:55 (when I was still sleeping...Who wakes up at 7:55 on a Saterday? I'd have slept until noon if I didn't have to be at Newcastle Civic centre at 11:30) to say the weather was awful and she wasn't coming out. I got up at 9, read the text, poked my head out the curtains and was dazzled by sunlight...Bad weather? WTF? Had a bit of an inner fume (I've had a rediculous amount of people lately who get me to do stuff for them but when I want them to come out they find an excuse. I shouldn't have fumed at Blood because she hardly ever does that), anyways five mintues later I got another text asking if I was angry because I wasn't texting back. I COULDN'T TEXT BACK! about ten minutes later I got another one saying she was coming out anyways...I was like how on earth should I feel? Amussed? Angry? Guilty for guilt tripping her even though I didn't really? WTF?

So by this point I was all sorted, giant wig...Check! Long black dress that still manages to be revealing...Check! Killer shoes of doom! Check! Remove the cat that seemed facinated that I was wearing something that covered my knees...Ouch ouch damn claws check!
So after Kev let me out of the building I went and stood at the bus stop (well err, obviously...How else was I supposed to get to Newcastle?) and there was this bloke standing there who then rather creepshly came over and in the pervyest voice ON EARTH said "You look loevely pet...Where you going?"
To which I replied
"Gay pride!", he kid of made an "Oh" noise and promptly shut up!

Got a bunch of funny stares when I got off the bus and cut up Northumberland street to get to the civic, then got all shocked by how few people were actually at the Civic (Hello it's 40 years since the Stonewall riots this year, do people not appreciate that if it wasn't for that, there'd be no Gay Pride? Or that there'd be no Gay Rights? And that people probably wouldn't remember Judy Garland's Deathday?).
Spotted Gary pretty quickley, and yes, he'd out done me YET AGAIN! Greek Goddess this year! Apparently he's wearing orange and brown next year, I think he might be pulling my leg though...
Had a bit of a kerfuffle trying to find Bloodmyer but we found eachother eventually (She rang me and I said I was the person leaping around franticly next to Dorathy from the Wizard of Oz (See, see someone remembered Judy), and somehow she found me! We then set out to find Psymon and his girlfriend. I'm most annoyed at Psymon...He thought I was Morticia Adams (Hello? Mort has straight hair and a fishtail dress!), and then his friend who I've never met before thought I was ment to be Amy Winehouse (Noooooooooooooooo!), so I proceeded to terrorfy the lot of them by explaining that I was Elvira and announced that I'm "Much more than a great set of boobs!" complete with boob grab :D
At ten to twelve the crowd seemed to quadruple in size all of a sudden, the Bangshees started drumming and suddenly we were off!
For the second year in a row the BNP were marching at the same time in a different place and fortunatly we got no trouble from them (that half a braincell they share between them obviously told them that messing with Vikki Paris in those heels is a baaaad idea), actually there wasn't any trouble from anybody this year, I remember last year there were a few protesters around Monumane and I became suddenly very aware that I was clutching a banner that read "God save the Queens", and there was a guy who shouted "Go home fags" (What? To Gateshead?), but not this year, this year there was just a really crabby looking old lady at a bus stop next to the green looking like we'd just offered her poison...We waved cheerily :D

Pretty much as soon as we got to the park I had to change out of my killer shoes of doom and into my huuuge walking boots, ouch ouch the foot pain! Ran into Gavin and was nearly hugged to death! Then we wandered around looking for freebies...DVLA win again for most awsome freebies, although they didn't give me a mug this year...Boo-urns!
Watched a couple of bands...They sucked...The Kitty Kat Dolls were awful, someone needs to explain to them that if their going to do boobs and butt centric dancing they need boobs and butts rather than being skeletaly thin...Does anybody really find this attractive...Seriously?
Sheltered in the drug action team bus when it started raining tabbys and labradoodles, then nipped out when it stopped for a while to see if The Camp Vamps were on yet...Nope :( Scooch were awful so we dissapeared off down to the Caboret (sp?) tent to go see Gayle Force do the seemingly impossible...Lesbian Drag! (No that's not a Lesbian in Drag, it was Gayle dressed a the Lesbian stereotype- Short spikey hair, butch looking T-Shirt and combats- whilst somehow managing not to just look like Gayle Force before she becomes a she), Fab as always, but the sign language interprater stole her thunger a little tiny tiny bit hehe.

Raced back up to the main stage and spotted the Vamps setting up and thought "HOORAY!"...Only to find they weren't on yet...Boo! But we did get a lady with an acoustic guitar instead...She was pretty cool, but not someone you'd intentionally watch in the pouring rain if you weren't waiting for someone else...And she seemed to do the longest set in the world!
FINALLY! Out came The Camp Vamps, with plastic glasses of something or other (they usueally come out with bottles of Corona) and introduced themselves before belting out their amsomely amazing version of Gay Bar (everytime I've seen them they've started with this and it's still AWSOME!), I know I've mentioned my hatered for Katy (die die die you evil bitch) Perry before and so you'll know that it would take a helluva bend to get me dancing to "I kissed a girl", proof that the Vamps are one helluva band! Bloodmyer, Gav and me lept around like idiots at the front singing along (even including their alternate lyrics "I kissed a girl and I liked it, hope my girlfriend don't mind it!"), possibly scaring a few people in the process!

After the Vamps we pretty much collapsed onto a park bench for the closing ceramony, then went off to Bloodmyers to eat food and sort our hair and smudgy make-up out before Charnel House. I wore the (by now ruined because of the rain) wig for a little while, but only because I promised Bev, Nicola and Meg that I would...Ack it was so hot and heavy I had to take it off very quickly! I also noticed while I was trying to dance with Bloodmyer and Gav that my dress was restricting my (lack of) dancing abillity! I could hardly move my arms! Oh and yes you read that right :D We got Gavin dancing :D

It was only when Bloodmyer and Gavin left I realised just how much my legs hurt, I limped over to a seat and sat there for the rest of the night in horrible pain thinking "Oh noooo damn you leggies, I like this song, I want to daaaaaance!"
Stupid bus was early and me and Kev missed it because the driver was one of those arsey types that (despite being early) refused to let us on between stops (even though he was stuck in traffic) so we ended up on a bus full of nutters again (at least I think we did, I was REALLY sleepy and I can't remember much of the bus ride, I do remember a fight at the bus stop though, crazy hen party drunks dressed as school girls screming at eachother and a crazy man dressed as a golfer running after the bus).

We actually woke up pretty early for a sunday...It was only 11am :D I was convinced it was later than that though because I could smell next door cooking food! Watched the Mera Luna DVDs, we kept thinking we spotted Kev then realising it was during bands he'd walked out on, after he'd allready walked out on them! Finally spotted him right at the front for Jesus on Extacy looking like he was having a fab time next to a bored looking girl who was apparently waiting to see Dir En Grey (Note to Kev: it's pronounced Deer en grey, not Dire en grey!), he made yummy yummy sunday dinner again (I mashed the potatos!) and I started watching the first series of Torchwood (never saw any of the first series because mam decided she didn't like it so nobody else could watch it *grumble*), stayed later than normal and took the last bus home.

If you can't tell I had a pretty fabulous internetless weekend :D Squee!

I got a,link the other day for a fashion community called Iqons, it aims to be "To fashion what myspace is to music". I decided to sign up so did. This was on Tuesday.
Today (Thursday) I check, sort out my friend add and go check the 15 minutes of fame page, happen to check the "coming soon on 15 minutes of fame and guess what I happen to spot?

MY PHOTO!

It's five pictures along so I guess that means my profile is going to be featured next Tuesday! WOW!

I hadn't even finished working on my profile yet!

I must remember to go thank the ever marvelous Bloodmyer for taking my profile photo :D

SQUEEE!

Yes that's what my govenment said years ago when it was voted in.
And in those years (a lot of which I spent milling around the youth service because I was home educated) they encouraged (read as put pressure onto schools and youth services to pressure us) us to go to university (ie: told us if we didn't get university qualifications we'd end up as bin men). Now that my generation are finally old enough, they realise that "whoops, can't fund all these people we've stressed silly all the way through school".

Now as you know I started university last Septemeber, so I should be safe right? WRONG!
Here's the insane bit, apparently next year the tuition fees are going up, never been a problem before because my student loan covers my fees, only apparently the loan isn't going up. So it's only going to partially fund my fees? Great I won't even be able to start my third year if this happens...Bloody fabulous, nice one just build people up for a fall why don't you?

I feel for anybody trying to get in this year, I really do. From what I can tell it's sheer insanity. I've just watched the minister for secondry education blathering on about the situation on the news. He's a really bad liar by the way, whole attempt at slow, calming voice combined with eyes that darted about all over the place and hands waving about everywhere.
Basicaly apparently this year there are 40,000 more people applying for university than last year but the govenment can only fund 10,000 more, only 3,000 of which are full time places.
3,000 students? Are you insane? That's like ONE, maybe TWO universites worth of first years!
It would have been funny, you know if it wasn't real.
He was sat there talking in circles and contradicting himself, 'twas insane.
"This is happening because of a budget cut...No there hasn't been any cut in budget" then the best one ever was when he said that "Everyone that applied and gets the grades will still have a university place". Right ok then, how does that work? Surely if there's 40,000 more applicants, then there's going to be more than 10,000 actually get the grades? What are they going to do then?

The best of all was when the interviewer got a little bit teed off at this daft minister and told him that people who'd studied at 6th form were potentially going to end up on the dole.
"Oh no," he said laughing, "They'll just either go back to college, apply again next year, get jobs or take a gap year."
Yeah sure thing.
Had I not managed to get in last year I could have (and probably would have even though it ment spending another year listening to the weeble winge on about how she isn't getting anough attention while I was gritting my teeth because she still owed me money) gone back to college and taken a year long Foundation degree and then applied again next year.
If I hadn't gotten in second time I don't know what I would have done, I know I'd be feeling like a failure though.
Get jobs? Uh yeah, where? How? We're having a ressesion you know? There aren't very many jobs around at the moment and because so many bussinesses are going bust there's an awful lot more people fighting over the jobs that there are, and what do you have to do for money while you can't find a job? Yeah that's right apply for job seeker's allowance, yep you guessed it "The dole".
Gap year? Don't make me laugh, you know how long it takes to get funding to go traveling when you don't have any money?
I wanted to have a gap year before I started uni, but when I looked into it it turns out I should have started trying to get funding when I started college (three years before applying for uni).

ARGH! I wish someone would just whack some sence into these people!

So again, yeah I'm sorry this took like almost a week to get around to posting, I'm a perfectionist and probably deserve a slap for it lol!

So again yeah I got to be in with the "Behind the scenes helping", ie: moving equipment around, finding cables and attempting to make the smoke machine smell a bit nicer (I made a rock gig smell like Britney Spears: In Control, I'm fairly sure a few people would have been out to get me had they known hehe) and I did all this with a crazy smile on my face because apparently I'm easily ammused or something.

I ended up taking money at the door (note to self, next time take a calculator), but it was still quite cool. 'Twas a small gig in a pub function room, and I like small cosey gigs where you don't need binoculars to see what's going on! Anyways I was right next to the door which was pretty much right next to the stage so I got an awsome view of the bands :D Yay me!

So first up were Death Emmiting Diode, I found them kinda boring to be honest, I don't know if they actually were boring or if it was because I was sleepy (I'd done a drug test earlier in the day to see if some new drug made you more alert, it pretty much sent me to sleep so I suspect I got a placebo not the actual drug), but they just seemed a little bit samey... Here's their myspace, make your own mind up: http://www.myspace.com/deathemittingdiode

Next came Flesh Eating Foundation! They were AWSOME! Woke me right up! A quote from thier myspace:
"FLESH EATING FOUNDATION LURK SOMEWHERE IN THE DARK SPACES BETWEEN INDUSTRIAL, PUNK, METAL AND ELECTRONICA. SOMETIMES THEY ROCK, SOMETIMES THEY EXPERIMENT, SOMETIMES THEY BREAK STUFF."
They dress as Zombies, spit blood and make noise, but WOW what noises they make! I was really dissapointed by the lack of people on the floor for them, there was one point where it was only me (after we closed the door) and Kev but eventually people did make their way up so I suppose that was cool :) I totally recomend giving them a listen, though I suspect nothing compares to seeing them live: http://www.myspace.com/flesheatingfoundation

Finally came Novus (who were also pretty super, but to be honest, musically I prefered FEF). Now like I explained this was a pretty small pub function room, but oh wow they had pyrotechnics! Yes...FIREWORKS!...IN A PUB!
It was one of those angle grinder type things where as soon as the sparks hit anything they imediatly stop burning, this combined with them chattering about how they'd set the fire alarms off the day before still didn't stop me jumping with shock first time they did it though (lol I'm a wimp!). Seriously it looked spectacular, but I guess the bar staff hadn't been forewarned because they made them stop with the fireworks :(
Sarahjane has a pretty awsome voice and their music was pretty cool, something I can see myself dancing to if it ever slips into goth club set lists. My only real problem with them was I think they'd have been much better had their guitarist concentrated more on playing guitar than showing off for his girlfriend! Their music can be found here and again I'd go recomend a listen: http://www.myspace.com/novusuk

How do I say this withopught sounding like one of the gushy crazies I keep complaining about?
I'm happy :)
No seriously!
I realise this comes as a shock to long time readers who remember my Hi5 journal that's entries consisted of such gems as "I hate my life I should just go OD on Calpol allready" but I am actually happy.
Lots of things falling into place at last (about bloody time in a few cases) and I actually feel like I'm at least halfway in control of my own life and it's great :D

Things are still going great with Kev, we went out last night for food and drinkies it was fun :) Don't think I can really say more than that withought going into minute detail of conversations and forkfulls of food which really would be sad, gushy and somewhat crazy.

I'm in a crazy arty mood again, might make another deviantart post laters, make some more of my tarot deck (I found some snazzy new images I want to manipulate, think I might *finally* have found a two of swords).

So Buzznet is now showing my Tweets on my profile? I guess this means I have to update at some point? Yeah don't expect much, I forsee it going for months at a time withought an update.
I'm thinking of changing my livejournal layout, can't find one I like though and most of the layout communities seem to be a bit dead. I've had the same bland layout ever since I set up my livejournal (gotta be around 2004 methinks), and my Starfuckers icon for at least half that time (previous to that I had Rhade from Andromeda), time for change y/n?
I need to figure out how to set my blogs up to feed into eachother to. See at the moment I'm Buzznetting first then copy pasting everywhere exept tmblr that I managed to set direct feeds up from Buzznet and Devinatart to. Lol it would be even better still if it was possible that all the comments would post to all the blogs too, actually you know what would be EVEN BETTER? If I didn't have all these crazy blogs everywhere!

Nah...I wouldn't get rid of my blogs...Lol I'd loose readers! And you know if I add togther all the readers from all my sites into one it's actually quite impressive so I guess someone appreciates me typeing rubbish.

Anyways I'm done rambeling gonna go work out how to save myself some copy paste time :)

Yes I'm ranting again.

First up, Micheal Jackson.
Now I was ner really all that into his music, I like the odd song, prefer covers though. That said I appreciate that he was a big part of some people's lives and that's fine they're upset, I get that, not gonna go prod them with the "get over it stick". Mind you I am going to savagely beat most of the 19 people on my Facebook friend list who have joined "RIP: Micheal we'll miss you" groups, or suddenly become a fan of him within the past few days.
Ok, you liked him that much? Why weren't you a fan allready? Oh and five minutes ago and they were calling him a Peadophille, why do they suddenly Love him? Is it because they won't have any more weird stories about him to read in the papers? Surely that makes them way more weird than he could ever have been?
It's Jade Goody all over again...Only with more talent and I can't really see Micheal's mother appearing on Jeremy Kyle in a few months to announce her days as a one armed lesbian are over and she's found a new man whose only interested in her to be "famous" (Is mother Jackson still alive? I know his hypocrite father is, but I doubt he'd make an apparence on Jeremy Kyle also).

 Secondly...Twitter, dear Gods someone please explain what everyone's fixation with this is?
I just don't get it AT ALL. I have a Twitter account, I updated for a couple of days and then got bored. Those couple of days happened to be really deppressing days so if anybody happenes to find me on Twitter I'll look like a fruitloop probably. I updated the other day because someone on Vampirefreaks asked if she could have my Twitter address, I haven't updated since. Seriously though, other than when Panasonic Youth got aressted last year at the prop 8 protest I don't think I've ever seen Twitter come in handy ever...All I see is creepy! I mean the whole "follow me" concept creeps me out, they should change that button to "E-Stalk me, and while you're at it riffle through my rubbish" and then you get the people who take it to crazy extremes! "Casey is holding a fork", "Bob has gas", "Jill just inhaled" followed a second later by "Jill just exhaled". Wow my life was so incomplete before I knew about Bob's flatulence...

Speaking of people who Twitter "to the max", I read this this morning: http://www.kcra.com/news/19856092/detail.html basicly a 17 year old girl in Brasov decided she need to Tweet her bathing experience (I'd imagine thise would be along the lines of "Twitterfan has just turned on the hot tap", "Twitterfan is turning off the hot tap and adding some cold water...Ooooh exiting o_0", "Twitterfan can't decide between bubble bath or bath salts...Thoughts?").
WHY WHY WHY WOULD YOU THINK IT'S OK TO TAKE A PIECE OF ELECTRICAL EQUIPMENT INTO THE BATH WITH YOU???
Has the zombie apocalypse happened and people are wandering around brainless and I wasn't aware???
When I was in infants school (I was 4/5ish to international readers), my whole class were shown a video about why water and electricity don't mix. It obviously had a profound effect on me as a child because I both remember it and have never electrocuted myself (with water anyways), basiclly a cat (can't remember if it was cartoon or a puppet or what, gimmie a break guys I was 4) had wet paws and tried to flip the lightswitch only to be electrocuted and die.
They don't show that video anymore incase it "disturbs young children", yeah alright it did disturb me, but I think when it's something that's potentially gonna save a child's life at some point in their increasingly electrical future then it's a good thing.
I kinda feel a bit bad for laughing but apparently her last Tweet said "Battery dead, going to put the plug in brb", or you know not brb.
I'm such a bitch sometimes...
Oh and for the Buzznetter who is inevitibly going to comment that it's cruel to laugh at death, I invite you to come laugh at mine when I die. I want people to laugh, death is funny especially when it's down to your own stupidity...Girl should win a Darwin Award.

Ok so I guess I probably look a little late on this one, it's not that. Seriously I've wanted to shake her violently ever since I first heard "I kissed a girl", but I contained my rantyness...

I just saw her interviewed again and the urge to rant HAS TAKEN OVER!

Seriously, part of me hopes that she really does have NO BRAIN INSIDE THAT LITTLE HEAD OF HERS but part of me thinks she's one of those annoyingly clever people who act like an airhead because it means people will buy her music.

I HATEHATEHATE her "music", no it's not because it's unbearable pop trash it's her lyrics. "I kissed a girl" for example drives me up the wall!

"I got so brave, drink in hand" Well done, second line and allready promoting alcahol as a tool of bravery.

"I kissed a girl just to try it
I hope my boyfriend don't mind it" Ok so drink aside, what are you doing kissing girls if you have a boyfriend? If you kissed another guy and blamed it on drink people would be calling you a skank right now, but you kissed a girl so you can boast...Way to go Katy! Way to go for promoting a stereotype that causes actual bisexual women to be stereotyped as being "easy" or unable to commit to one person at a time.

"No, I don't even know your name, it doesn't matter" SKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANK!

"You're my experimental game, just human nature" Human nature to use people? Well I gotta say I must be a martian then because I've never had the urge to use people.

"It's not what good girls do" Rar! Scary evil Lesbians...Did equality just leap back a few decades there?

"It ain't no big deal, it's innocent" Dude, make your mind up weather this was good idea or not...And do it with a less irritating tune please.

I also take HUUUUUUGE exeption at bits of Hot and Cold, though not quite as much as "I kissed a girl" which as you can tell makes me RAAAAAAAAGE!

"You change your mind like a girl changes clothes" So he doesnt change his mind uless he's leaving the house? Wow... (Yeah I mooch around in my jammies unless I'm going out...Heh...Scruff...Moi?)

Aaaaaand don't even get me started on "UR SO GAY", fabulous lets just use Gay as a negative again shall we? And while we're at it, talk in text speak...*sigh*

"i hope you hang yourself with your H&M scarf
While jacking off listening to mozart" Charming dear...

"You don't eat meat
And drive electrical cars" This is a problem why?

"You need SPF 45 just to stay alive" Because getting skin cancer is so macho??? Hang on, SPF 45 and Motzart...Is your boyfriend a Vampire???

"I can't believe I fell in love with someone that wears more makeup than..." I assume she realised that he doesn't wear more make-up than her...I know Drag Queens that wear less.

"You pull em' down and there's really nothing there" Well unless all the Gay guys I know are liars than this guy is not Gay...

I think I might make myself a "I hate Katy Perry" cape to wear over my Elvira dress for Pride this year...Or better still! "I kissed Katy Perry...AND DIED!"
Over dramatic y/n ?

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Friday was hell for me. I saw the nicest person I know reduced to a broken mess by someone she Loved. Someone I trusted.
I'm angry at said person and nobody else seems to be, I'm angry because she made the nicest person I know cry, and scream and blame herself when it wasn't her fault and there was nothing she could have done.
I'm angry because she said that my friend had ruined her life and she had no friends because of her. I don't care that she took it back later, the moment I heard that she lost my trust forever.
I'm not being dramatic she has, I don't hate her but I can never, ever trust her again, no matter what happens. I was her friend too, she was supposed to be mine.
That made me cry...Infront of people. I don't do that, not ever. Last time I cried infront of people was when my sister left, I told myself I'd never let anybody hurt me that much again, and if they did I wouldn't let anybody see how hurt I was.
This hurt more, like I say it hurt because she broke my trust, but it hurt far more because she broke my friend and I had to see her in that state.

Fast forward 24 hours and I'm sitting on a bus on my way to Newcastle, feeling like hell, really not wanting to go out at all because I was eaten up by worry and anger and the urge to burst into tears and the urge to supprese them. I only went out because I'd allready told Kev I would, and I said I would meet my friend there. She rang me when I was on the bus, "Oh yeah I'm not coming out tonight, to tired, that thing you wanted the hug about, tell me what happened."
She said it in such a "Wow my life is awsome" way that I just wanted to punch her. I got unessesarily angry, told her it was fine, told her I'd deal with it myself (well I wasn't going to tell her what happened down the phone on a bus), hung up and felt even worse.

Got off the bus, went down the wrong street for Charnal YET AGAIN, and had to walk past The Black Garter. Their regulars obviously saw the chinc in my armor this week because I was squidging past people and they started on me "Errr are you a bloke or a wummin'?", "Do you stand and deeliva in that coat?", wanted to scream but didn't, couple more digs at me and they got what they wanted, I bit back, stuck two fingers up behind my back and screamed "FUCK OFF AND DIE!". Kept walking, ignored the cat calls that followed about what they'd like to do to me with their dirty fingers, resisted the urge to vomit at the thought.

Got to Charnal at last, talked to Kev for a bit "how are you" general type stuff, felt better. Maybe it's because he doesn't know all of what happened, only what I told him, which isn't very much more than what I typed up in the first paragraph, but maybe that's why I felt better talking to someone on my list of people I actually trust who wasn't involved, the only other people I trust are.

Had my tarot cards read, it was kinda odd having my cards read over loud music, made me feel just a little bit self consious that people might have heard him practically yelling the the word "ORIENTATION" at me and taken it out of context. He was very good I thought. I did my useual little scan for cold reading techniques, kind of harder to do than useual what with "Rikki's hand" playing in  the background, but nevermind, he seemed genuine.
I asked about the craziness that happened on friday, didn't tell him what I was asking about until after he'd told me what everything ment, he told me to do that actually which I thought was pretty cool. He said there was a battle coming, said I was angry at someone who'd just turned my world upside down, brought up that I find it really hard to trust people and my trust had been shattered (this was all swords, my "favorite card" made a jolly appearence too, good old reliable nine of swords...AKA Nightmare), said that this "battle" was resolavble, but it wasn't really my fight, I just had to support people. I took that to mean I have to be there for my friend when she needs me, and to try my damn hardest to convince the other one to bloody stand up for herself, and if she really loves my friend she'll pick her over her control freak of a father. Even if she does though...The sad thing is I'll still never be able to trust her again.
Asked another question, got the "Orientation" thing, pretty sure it relates back to something that happned years ago that's pretty similar to what's happening to my friend now, so creepishly similar infact that it also involved people dissapearing off to Birmingham...Seriously, what is it with that place? He brought my trust issues up again, and something very odd about religion that didn't really mean much then, infact I kinda brushed it off at the time, but I suppose it's worth remembering, just incase it does make an appearence. Told me not to hide who I am, to stop second guessing people and to tell the people I do trust that I trust them. I took his advice and started telling people...Apparently it was a bit random...Maybe that was just timeing.

Misty got a bit drunk, it was kinda funny, I've never seen her like that before, there's a fab photo of us hugging on the website...I'm not actually ginger by the way, I really don't know why I look ginger in that photo! Maybe I just needed to talk to someone because I felt a billion times better, acctually quite enjoyed the night after all. Won a CD, haven't had a chance to listen to it yet.

Went home with Kev, the bus ride was far more fun that usual! My cousin and the head boy of my brother's school got on the bus.
A bit of background is needed here, my brother is an Athiest (sp?), he goes to a super religious Christian school, the more they try to shove Christ down his throught, the less he believes in the man. I'm actually pretty proud that he stands up for what he believes in, it's made him pretty unpopular with the "elite" IE: Head boy, head girl, prefects and other assorted goody two shoeses. About a year ago my other cousin (litle brother of the one who got on the bus) threw a compas at my brother, and my brother told the teacher. This caused a really stupid feud between bits of my family. My dad's sister (my aunt and their mother), rang my dad and accused my brother of being a liar (so the blatent compass entry point just magically appeared huh?), and their side of the family hasn't spoken to any of us since.
So imagine my suprise when I look up post bus kiss to find my cousin and some nerdy looking kid glareing back at me! Well my first reaction was to laugh hysterically, but I decided not to. It actually got far more ammusing because Kev started talking loudly about his opinions on Cocaine, which I suppose are a bit contraversial, but it wasn't like he was saying he was a druggie or anything, 'twas mostly stuff about how it's not the drug that kills you, it's what it's cut with...Nevertheless apparently I'm not welcome at school events anymore...METAL!
I laughed when she got off the bus and half explained the situation.
When we got back to his, we ordered pizza, mine had Olives on it...Mmmmm I adore black Olives, so damn good. Jeepers I'm such a foodie...Slimming advertisers should run scared...Especially if they're made of tofu! I'll eat them mwahahahaha!

Stayed in bed until midday, I'm so lazy at times, but bed was comfortable and warm and I was in good company, what more could I want? Spent most of the day lazing around in his living room using his internet and listening to radio Dunkle Welle (which is available on itunes, plug plug a plug), had our usual bunch of really random conversations, it was nice...I like random, make me happy :)

He made me dinner, propper sunday dinner (well as close as you can get for a Vegan anyways), I mashed the potatos, it was lovely, and such a nice thought. Told my mam when I got home, her response was "I thought it was ment to be the way to a MAN'S heart is through HIS stomache?"

It was a pretty simple day I guess, but lovely all the same. Simple is good sometimes, everything has it's place really :)

When did I become this optimistic??

Why in the world had this made international news?

What ever's next? Obama's first sneeze?

Seriously people, surely there's something way more important or way more light hearted you could be fussing about? But nooo... It's Obama...And he's killing a fly...WTF?

Speaking of WTF? WTF is going on with PETA's reaction? Puh-lease...
They're sending him one of these: https://www.petacatalog.org/prodinfo.asp?number=HP220
Now while it would be great for everything to be all fluffy and humaine, a humane fly trap (which you have to close the door on yourself) just looks overly complicated. You do realise how fast flys can be right? It was a miricle (ok that's probably both the wrong word and spelled wrong) that he hit the thing in the first place. You wanna try lureing a fly into your trap and then attempt to close the door before it flies away, be my guest, but allow me to come over, sit on your sofa and eat a family sized bag of pickled onion monster munch (do those exist?) and laugh at you leaping all over the house in persuit of said fly...
You wanna be humane to flys? Ignore them, welcome their disease riddled bodies into your home, don't hug them though, you might squish the poor things.
Even better idea, get a venus fly trap...Or a cat...Or a dog (my dog is a big fan of eating wasps), and if you really must then resort to swatting then go right ahead but don't blame me if you accidently punch the wall instead.

I hate PETA, does that make me a bad Vegan?

HAVING BABIES!

Ok maybe not everybody, but everybody I know whose around my age and complaing because they aren't all settled down yet!

Seriously, I'm sorry for writing ANOTHER rantypants journal entry, but this is NO LIE. I'm currently talking to someone over facebook that I used to go to school with.
She feels old, wants a baby and want's to settle down...SHE'S 22 WTF???

Also today I found out someone (whose actually JUST older than me because I remember illegally drinking at her 18th birthday a few months before mine), is pregnant. Seriously, I'm 20, half my friend list is pregnant. The other half are a collection of guys, my family and girls who allready have babies (a couple of them are onto their seconds).

The worst bit? They aren't even accidents, they're doing the BY CHOICE!
I repeat...I'M TWENTY!!! I've only just started to enjoy my life as apposed to wanting to throw myself off a building due to lack of personal freedom, why in the god's names would I want to then wreck my freedom with a small screaming parasite??? BY CHOICE??? I mean yeah ok, fair enough if it was an accident, but they're doing it BY CHOICE!
And don't even get me started on the "No alcahol for nine months" thing. I like alcahol, I don't think I'm an alcaholic, but the prospect of not being able to consume any for nine months, would depress me.
Oh and hormonalness, I don't get PMS really since I had my Implanon put in (though I did get a bit weepy the other night), but I still remember what it feels like and spending a week flipping between wanting to murder everyone and crying into my pillowcase whilst nomming my way through family sized bars of chocolate WAS HELL. Why would I want to impose that on myself FOR NINE WHOLE MONTHS???

DO THESE PEOPLE NOT THINK???

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Tonight's episode of the world wide weird is brought to you by Vampirefreaks and my hotmail inbox. Names from the Vampirefreaks one have been removed because I genuinely think these people just don't realise what a dangerous game they're playing. Names in the scam email have not because those proably aren't their real names anyways.

To start, here's the reason I'm now leaving the cult CurvyxDolls on Vampirefreaks:

Want To Win a Premium Membership?
Now that I have your Attention!

CurvyxDolls is hosting a WEIGHT LOSS CHALLENGE!!
This thread is NOT the challenge, just a SIGN UP!
The Challenge will start on July 1st!!

In order to be in the contest you must:
-have 50+ posts
-need to check in the FIRST of every week with full body photos, and your weight. To make sure your not cheating you MUST have the date somewhere on your photos. Also we need a photo of your scale with your current weight!
In the Body Shot you need TIGHT clothes for the photo OR bra/panties or bathing suit!
-if you miss a week your disqualified.
-winner of that week gets a prize [signs/comments/ratings/icons]


im going to give everyone till the last day of June to sign up!
Then on the first of July, people need their full body shots [from that day] and your weight-so we know they are not cheating-if its not they are disqualified.

So if you think your up for the Challenge, PLEASE Sign up here!!
MAKE SURE YOU CAN MEET AT THE REQUIREMENTS!!

The Overall winner gets ONE Month Premium Membership!!

Edited by *name removed* at June 15, 2009, 03:25am

*name removed*	Re: Want To Win a Premium Membership? Jun 15, 2009, 03:24am Im in =P [i just need to lose weight!!]
*name removed*	Re: Want To Win a Premium Membership? Jun 15, 2009, 04:09am I'm definitely in!
Alexandriaweb [cult status] [online] Posts: 2 [edit]	Re: Want To Win a Premium Membership? Jun 15, 2009, 04:45am That's both dangerous and disgusting that you should do this. Don't you really how unhealthy it is to have a weight loss challenge? I thought this was going to be a cult of sensible proud curvey ladies not people who lack common sense. Also *name removed*, you don't need to loose weight, if anything you need a few good dinners because you are nowhere near curvy.
*name removed*	Re: Want To Win a Premium Membership? Jun 15, 2009, 10:33am Maybe in other time (hope you do this again in 9 months because right know I'm pregnant )
*name removed*	Re: Want To Win a Premium Membership? Jun 15, 2009, 10:49am EEEEEEEEEEEEEK
*name removed*	Re: Want To Win a Premium Membership? Jun 15, 2009, 10:50am ehh Alexandriaweb what the fuck are you talking about? seriously, mind your own business! I decide if I need to lose weight or not, ok? Just in case, *link to photo of girl with lack  of anything that could ever be mistaken for a curve removed* a proof of what you call 'not curvy'. Also what's so bad with a weight loss challenge? Maybe some people get easier motivated if they really want to lose weight and participate?
*name removed*	Re: Want To Win a Premium Membership? Jun 15, 2009, 11:31am How long will it run for?
*name removed*	Re: Want To Win a Premium Membership? Jun 15, 2009, 02:25pm I think if people wanna lose weight its a good thing heart fucker you really do look really thin on your icon, but that full body pic of you is even prettier
*name removed*	Re: Want To Win a Premium Membership? Jun 15, 2009, 03:01pm Alexandriaweb, have you even seen a show called The Biggest Loser? Those people are pushed to their maximum everyweek to loose weight in hopes of winning a large sum of money. Its all about getting healthy and becoming a better you. Whats the diffrence here?
*name removed*	Re: Want To Win a Premium Membership? Jun 15, 2009, 03:17pm I definitely agree you, *name removed*! Thanks! And thank you *name removed*, but that actually was the angle the icon picture was taken with. Edited by: *name removed* at June 15, 2009, 03:17pm
Alexandriaweb [cult status] [online] Posts: 3 [edit]	Re: Want To Win a Premium Membership? Jun 15, 2009, 04:02pm ehh Alexandriaweb what the fuck are you talking about? seriously, mind your own business! I decide if I need to lose weight or not, ok? Just in case, here's a proof of what you call 'not curvy'. Also what's so bad with a weight loss challenge? Maybe some people get easier motivated if they really want to lose weight and participate? Hey ok it's your health, you wanna end up super unhealthy do what you like because if you loose any weight that's what you'll be. Alexandriaweb, have you even seen a show called The Biggest Loser? Those people are pushed to their maximum everyweek to loose weight in hopes of winning a large sum of money. Its all about getting healthy and becoming a better you. Whats the diffrence here? Yes I have, and I'm just waiting for the day someone takes it to far. You guys realise that this is not a way to develop a healthy attitude to food right? This is the kinda thing Pro-Ana people do, you know how addictive it is once you start trying to compete with people over loosing weight? Yeah you'll say, oh I'll stop when I get to such and such a weight but then you'll want to loose "just a little bit more, just to win..." Trust me, I know, I've been there. You really want to loose weight? Then don't compete with people, set yourselves a goal weight on your own, make a healthy eating and exersise plan and do it yourselves. Like I say, I thought this was going to be a cult of people who are proud of their bodies, not a pro-ana sham.

It actually went on long after this in which I went into great detail about how this kinda thing put me into a really negative mindset a few years back, it's a mindset that was really hard to get out of, and they swore at me and told me I don't know what I'm talking about. Ah ok, looking in mirrors and seeing a fattie when I'm blatently not, and vommiting into sinks not enough for them? Who'd have thought it. (FYI I was 15 at the time, though I still do see this horrible fat woman staring at me from the mirror sometimes)

So yeah I totally came down a bit hard on them at first, but seriously this is not a healthy way to loose weight. Anybody reading this thinking it is, please please don't get involved in slimming contests, they look like a great idea at first, but they really are'nt.
Also, anybody notice the hypocracy? It's a curvy girls group, their description is about how proud they are to be curvy and they're having a slimming contest.
WTF???

GAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

And now on a lighter note, I got the most hillarious scam spam today. Paragraph in bold is what made me spit tea all over my keyboard:

Based on our investigations,we wish to warn you against some Miscreants, Hoodlums and Touts who go about scamming innocent people by claiming to bewho they are not and thereby tarnishing the image of this wonderful country. I am Lt General Peter Olu (Rtd),National Security Adviser to the new Nigerian President Umaru Musa Yar'Adua.

I am delighted to inform you that the contract panel which just concluded its seating in Abuja, just released your name among listed beneficiaries to benefit from the Diplomatic Immunity Payment. This Panel was primarily delegated to investigate manipulated inheritance claims, contracts and over-invoiced payment as the effect has eaten deep into the economy of our dear country.

However,we wish to bring to your notice that your contract profile is still reflecting in our central computer as unpaid beneficiary while auditing was going on. Your payment file was forwarded to my office by the auditors as unclaimed fund, we wish to use this medium to inform you that for the time being,the Federal Government of Nigeria have stopped further payment through bank to bank transfer due to beneficiaries numerous petitions to United Nations against Nigeria on wrong payment and diversion of contract/inheritance funds to different accounts.

In this regards, we are going to send your contract part payment of $4.1 Million USD to you via our accredited shipping company and I have secured every needed documents to cover the money while the diplomat will get it delivered to you right in your door step.

Note: The money is coming in 2 security proof boxes. The boxes are sealed with synthetic nylon seal and padded with machine. Please you don't have to worry for anything as the transaction is 100% risk free.

The consignment will be coming with a Diplomatic agent,who will accompany the boxes to your house address.All you need to do now is to send to me, your full house address and your identity such as,international passport or drivers license and your mobile or fixed telephone number as the Diplomatic Agent will travel with it and will call you immediately he arrives to your country's airport. I hope you understand me.

Bear in mind that the diplomat does not know the original contents of the boxes. What l declared to them as the contents is Sensitive Photographic Film Materials for security reasons. I did not declare money to them please. If they call you and ask you the contents please tell them the same thing Ok. I will let you know how far I have gone with this arrangement.

Lastly,i will secure the Diplomatic Immunity Clearance Certificate (D.I.C.C) which will make him pass every custom checkpoints all over the world without any hitch.Confirm the receipt of this message and send the requirements to me immediately because your boxes are scheduled to leave as soon as we hear from you. I can be reached on my direct official number: *removed for your own safety*

Best Regards,

Lt General Peter Olu (Rtd).
National Security Adviser to the President
Federal Republic of Nigeria.

A scam that warns you about scams? Whatever next???

So I'm a little upset today.
A girl I used to talk to on the internet died. She was really ill and I knew it was coming but I'm still pretty upset.
See it's weird, that although I never actually met her, she felt like a friend and now it feels like someone I really knew died.
Funny how the world works.
I nearly cried you know. I remembered that she left me a few messages on my profile on the forum we were on and I went back and read them. It was silly of me, I felt myself welling up and wondering when I became this emotional.
There were only two, one saying thanks for wishin her happy birthday and that she liked the picture I posted (I don't remember what the picture was at all :( ) and the other thanking me for wishing her well with her latest round of chemo. All the crazy stuff I pulled on those boards, and yet there she was thanking me for stuff.
She was lovely, and I'll miss seeing her name next to posts. :(

So totally on the spur of the moment I ended up deciding to go to London with Kev on Thursday (by spur of the moment I mean he asked me to go with him to see Lacuna Coil, I felt like a gold digger because he'd be paying for everything because I have no money and said no, so he kept asking until I gave in and said yes lol).

Scared someone on the train on the way down (can't tell weather it was the public displays of affection, or the various conversations about death etc that freaked her out but as soon as the woman sitting next to her got off the train she and her laptop escaped to the nearest empty seat with a plug socket! Kev accidently deleted the internet and had to system restore his laptop and I realised that tassley (is that a word?) belts are never a good idea on trains...People stand on them!
For three hours on a train with the most uncomfortable seats ever it wasn't a bad journey actually, must have been the company :)

Got to Kings Cross and managed to get out of the station pretty quickly, never passed platforms 9 and 10 though so I missed out on watching small children running into walls!
SUDDENLY! Out came the street map! I thought guys were terrible with directions? Not this one :)
Seriously though we walked up the weirdest road in the world! It started down next to Kings Cross and it was all Londony (you know, major city kinda look), turned into an industrial estate, became an alrightish looking area not to different from where I live, then became a scary youisgunnagetraypedesqe place, before becoming nice again, then becoming all awsome and terracy.

The b+b was really nice from the outside (to be fair it was ok inside to, I have stayed in way way worse...Epping Forest Youth Hostel for a start!), took aaaaaages to check in though, took the desk guy forever to find our reservations, I totally sighed a big sigh of relief when he finally found it!
Our room was in the basement (oh how Goth!), it was kinda small, would have been bigger if it wasn't for the random single bed that was squished in at the bottom (I guess it was sometimes a family room), there were windows (yeah a basement with HUGE ASS WINDOWS! WTF?), they had bars, which for some reason we found quite ammusing! Bathroom was tiny, but hey it was en-suite so I wasn't complaining (until I tried to take a shower and flooded the bathroom because the  shower needed fixing and the temperature control was a lie, but that's besides the point).
We were gonna pop to the off licence and get some beers for before the gig but by the time we got all sorted and setled in (*ahem*), there were only a couple of hours to go and since the tube was on strike and the London bus service is kinda weird (you have to buy your ticket before you get on the bus, only it's not like in Estonia, where you buy them from isn't clearly advertised everywehre) so we just walked to Camden instead :)

Camden Barfly is awsome! We had a drink each in there first then went to Cottons Caribean resturaunt a couple of doors up the road for food ( if you're ever in Camden you should totally go eat there, don't be put off by the prices and the service charge it's all totally worth it, sooooo good), I had this Roast Vegetable medley thing with a little tub of jerk sauce and a bowl of rice and peas and it was sooooo good, I was really upset that my tummy got to full to let me finish it it was the nicest thing I've eaten in aaages. I also had the best Pina Colada I've ever ever had too! It had actual fresh pinapple in it rather than the tinned crap you get in bars, I'm actually drooling thinking about how good it was! Kev had curried goat, it smelled nice, apparently it was nice...I'll take his word for it lol

After that we went back to the Barfly and waited in the que (I can never spell that word...FAIL) that was forming outside, got talking to guy from Coloumbia (we didn't really understand much of what he was saying, he kept slipping back into Spainish, and I only have a very brief grasp of Spainish, though it's probably more than most British tourists know if the media are to be believed), what I understood was pretty interesting. He then wandered off and we ressumed our waiting...And waiting...And more waiting. Doors were supposed to open at 7, we didn't get in until nearly 9. This was never explained and it was really annoying.

When we did finally get in, we got another drink each, I had possibly the most amazing rum and coke in the history or rum and coke because the bottle FELL OFF THE WALL, so I got what tasted like a tripple for the price of a single...Om nom nom!
Didn't think much of the support band (My Passion) at all. They were (in my opinion), total rip offs of Mindless Self Indulgence, and I don't really think much of Mindless Self Indulgence to start with. All their songs sounded the same, they had those terrible "If we look like this people will love us reguardless of our lack of talent" haircuts and I spent half of their set thinking their bassist was a woman.
Lacuna Coil totally made up for it though! They were utterly fantastic, and as the barfly only has a 200 people capacity, we were unbelievbly close!
The crowd (feels weird calling 200 people a crowd), were a little on the quiet side though, until quite near the end I think Kev and I were the people making the most movement (and I'm not really a very mov-ey person), yeah I know we'd been waiting outside for nearly two hours but still I wonder if Rikki from Uberbyte was right about people from certain places getting bored of bands handing themselves to them on a silver platter all the time?
Nevertheless they were awsome, and I had a great time :)

We did end up going to an off licence on the way back, bought four cans of larger and had two each (one on the way back, one in the hotel room), I actually suprised myself by not being drunk. Tipsy yes, but not drunk lol. I did make a huuuuuge noise when we got back to the b+b because I tripped on a step that I forgot was there and did the "I am supprised and falling" noise (you ever seen that episode of the Vicar of Dibley where she finds out that the guy she marries in the last one isn't cheating on her and the mysterious woman is his sister, then he proposes to Geraldine? It's similar to the noise she makes).
I kept waking up through the night and totally forgetting about the flooded bathroom and ending up with wet feet...FML lol.

So breakfast was fun and interesing lol, I fashioned my own beans on toast from the one bit of the breakfast I could eat (a dish of beans), and the complementry toast (note for the future, I need to forewarn places of my veganess lol), awsome pot of tea though *drool*
Theeen we went off back to Kings Cross to get the train home...Still never passed platforms 9 and 10...Boo!

The train ride home was an adventure in itself, we ended up in the quiet coach! We deffinatly disturbed a few people with public displays of affection this time hehe! We got to York and then had to change trains because of a signal error somewhere.
We ended up in another quiet coach lol.

All in all I had a fabulous time, and I'm glad he convinced me to go with him :D